[Eridan cries a little on the inside at the "Desperate." Yeah... he knows it. though he's starting to get upset. And so, he turns it up to elevven, trying to explain his actions however he could, as half-assed as his explanations are.]

Kar, it's somethin' that at the time I felt like I just had to be doin'. You'd be understandin' more if you were in my shoes I'm sure because no one understands me better than me. Like you've never felt like your situation was rock fuckin' bottom! Heartbroken, an' feelin' like the world was against me, livin' in a world where nothin' but terrible death awaited us. And I am not fuckin' exaggeratin' either when I say everyone I mean even the fuckin' angels were against me. For someone who is supposed to be havin' hope up to my gills I had none a' it so I was desperately tryin' to find the solution that'd hopefully be givin' us some an' I found it, I thought. Like I said you wouldn't fuckin' understand.

Also you're actin' like I have no regrets but that's not fuckin' true not in the slightest!